Confidence, where do we find it?

I am working a few days a week at a local gallery in their framing department.  I decided to go bigger last year but bigger means more money in framing and mounting, working at the gallery gives me some pocket cash and cut rates on framing.  Seems like a win-win with me, save when the owner goes out of town and asks me to run things without the support of supervision.  Over 30 years ago, I worked for a gallery and would design framing for others but we never had the choices in molding like I do here.  Lord knows that giving a client too many choices can confuse things but what do you do when you yourself are thrown off by a huge selection? 

Then there was doing framing and mounting unsupervised, boy did I toss and turn a few nights about that.  Fake it till you make it isn't really an option when someone else is counting on you to support their business.  How did I do with it?  How did I keep going in and working?  I trusted what I was taught and took a feeling of confidence from the confidence the owner showed in me by leaving me alone with her baby.  I did make some mistakes, but that was to be expected and I communicated every day with the owner through private messenger.  Every time she answered my questions and responded, she showed me how much faith she had in me.

What happens when you are trying something on your own?  Where does the trust and confidence come from then?  Learning from failure and learning how to get up and try again.  I remember telling a young friend of mine how proud of her I was.  She kept loosing one job after another (COVID was making it difficult to keep them) and I said, "You keep trying, that is what impresses me."  Trying and failing teaches you the confidence to get back up again and you persevere enough to learn to trust you will find your feet.  That is why horsemen will get back on after they have been thrown off by their mounts.  The only difference between them and you is that they are working on finding their seat instead of feet.  Doesn't really matter about nouns or semantics, Perseverance teaches you to trust you will survive long enough to learn and build your confidence.  Anything is worth working for, keep a clear Eyed goal and just push forward.

I made it, the gallery survived and the owner was able to take a break for a minute.